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Every word resonates with me. Growing up i was a Maladaptive daydreamer, to the point I couldn't function in real life. I would do it to escape my spirals of anxious thoughts. Not wanting to be me, to not exist in the current world.

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i hear you. i wish it was easier to live than it is to dream. very glad it resonated, thank you for reading and may be we both find it easier one day 🤍

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i can tell this came from such an honest place, and i think that’s why i identify with it so much. i’ve dealt with those same thoughts, and i think mine come just needing a break. not a weekend or a day off, but a break where no one talks to me or wants anything from me. a break where time can stop so i won’t miss anything. i want to live, but sometimes it’s so overwhelming i wish i could just pause everything.

this piece is so authentic and your words are so expressive. thank u for sharing!

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to put the world on pause! i love the way you described that. how lovely it’d be, to put the world on pause, to not be for a moment, and just take a long, deep breath

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i debated for a long time on whether or not i was being too "negative and vague" in this, so to see that others understand and feel the same is such a comforting thought.

i totally get it, i wish that all the time, and i hope you can find some form of pause. and thank you so much for reading ❤️

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i see so much of myself in this piece 🌟 you're definitely not alone in feeling this way!

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i'm so glad it resonated! <3

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this is completely void of any optimism but i’d like to share anyway: i used to have so much anxiety about people learning new things about me after i’m dead and the fact that no one is truly gone forever. i guess i can blame that on technology brain. delete a photo you’ve never shared then wipe your icloud and poof it’s gone for eternity. i don’t know if life would be easier or even harder if we were like photographs.

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this is so real. i think it'd be a mix of both but either way that's such an interesting thought. and please, i completely understand, lack of optimism is always welcome here lol

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